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About his early period, Gackt admits that when he was young, he was
crazy. "Actually, I was driven crazy," he explains, "and I was brought
in the mental hospital. When I was 6 or 7 years old, I was drawn in the
sea in Okinawa. I was saved, but after being revived, I felt I'm
psychic. I started to see what I had not seen before. My parents of
course didn't believe in me, and anyone around me couldn't understand
what I was saying, and I can't speak over anyone, and everyone said I
was crazy and 'You're just seeing illusions.' And that kind of drove me
crazy." (Eventually, his family left Okinawa and moved to Kyoto when he
was 7.)
As a child after his drowning accident, Gackt felt "kanashibari"
(suddenly becoming inexplicably paralyzed while lying down) a lot, and
ghosts moved his body. He says, "One day, when I got up, I found myself
on the bench in our school which was 5km from home. And the peak occured
when I was 10 years old; something happened to me, and because of this I
totally lost all my trust for my parents. I became more like psycho. One
night, my parents were drinking with their friends downstairs. I was
upstairs, but in my body some women's ghosts moved in, and I was so
scared. And the women were crying and walking downstairs using my body,
and she also said, 'Help me! Help me!' repeatedly. And I was rather
objectively observing myself, but my parents noticed me and said, 'Oh,
you just had a bad dream' and laughed at me. At that point, I was really
hurt, and I lost all hope of expecting them to understand me."
(Referring to his 'psychic' ability, Gackt says that according to aging,
it has decreased, but he often feels it.)
When he was a child, Gackt wanted to be an
orchestra conductor. However, he says, "At first I wanted to be a
brass instrument player." He started playing brass instruments in
school and he learned every |
